A day off! That is what today is. I've been working like a dog lately. At the 9/11 memorial visitors center. Talk about a downer. I'm the greeter, it feel a little something like this: Hi! Welcome to the 9/11 memorial visitors center where we will rehash horribly unsettling feelings from the worst attack on American soil in recent history!!!!!!!! Buy a t shirt so you can remember these feelings FOREVER or at least as long as the shirt lasts.

The weirdest part is it feels like a tourist attraction, but it's still filled with people who were personally affected by these events. Pretty unsettling. And this is where I've been working for the past two weeks. I didn't expect it to be so heavily visited or to emotionally affect me so much. The worst part is pretty much no one realizes that you need a visitors pass to enter the memorial because pretty much every newscaster managed to not say as much on tv. This one woman went to me: You should have told the Today Show to say that, my response was: I told Matt Lauer, you messed it up! But he wouldn't listen to me, her response: If you would have told Meredith, she would have listened. Amen sister friend. So anyways I'll get these people who are like I'm from out of town, I have today only and my best friend was in the hijacked plane right behind the terrorist and I have to tell them, I'm sorry you have to reserve your passes in advance online, and then I try to hold back tears meanwhile the video that has been repeating all day cuts to the part where the widow talks about how she can't clean out his closets but stares at his shirts remembering him wearing them... everyday feels like a constant battle not to slit my wrists. And I mean this in the most hilarious way possible. I am actually a stable person who does not have suicidal thoughts. (disclaimer).

Besides that, everything's been going well! If you can believe it. Working on starting to co-create my very first webseries! Also, might I add that despite my crazy work schedule, I've been managing to slip in a few auditions AND stick to the made up diet where I don't consume alcohol or ice cream. Not too shabby. Now if only I had a couple days off to devote to catching up on tv/movies that I've been wanting to see... then I'd be set.