I did it- I got not one but two interviews the following week after I made the bet with my sister! (See entry below for details) It came as a total surprise really, I got a call from the Manhattan Theatre Club about a position I applied for a while ago, and that same day on a whim I applied for a job on Craigslist and got an immediate response for an interview. After a morning of job searching online I went to get a massage at massage envy, and low and behold when I stepped outside I realized I had a missed call from a New York number and voice mail asking me to come in for a job interview. I was ecstatic, I couldn't wait to call my sister. After the two interviews, I don't think I'll take either of the jobs because they're really not what I'm looking for, but I'm still grateful that they happened because they gave me hope and made me realize that not everyone laughs at my resume when I submit it for jobs. Tomorrow I have a meeting with a temp agency in NY and another on Monday. I'm really hoping that these two lead to something that pays. That's what I need, to find a paying job.

Shopper's delight

I had a break through today. It came unexpectedly when my sister came home from work and realized she didn't have the key to her apartment. She had to wait over an hour for her husband to come home so I suggested I pick her up and we hang out since she had a rough day. We headed for the local mall. After a stop at Starbucks, a waltz through Victoria's Secret (which unfortunately has tacky incredibly sexual innuendos on all of their clothes, which mostly preteens buy) and a disappointing mosey through Gap, we decided to drool over all the clothes we try to convince ourselves we can afford at Anthropologie.

Amongst the ruffles knitwear and beading, I feel in love. With a jacket. A beautiful cape jacket I imagined myself strolling around New York in with elbow length gloves and jean colored leggings. Imagining was as close I was going to be unless I wanted to make a serious dent in my savings. My sister, aware of my new heartbreak after seeing the price tag, made me a promise. She said if I could get an interview for a full time job in the next week, she would purchase the coat for me.

I have found my inspiration. Something to keep me going after weeks of little hope in terms of job prospects, I have something to remind myself that this hunt is difficult but I must prevail. Even beyond the following week, I have a reminder of what I'm really working towards. The coat is really symbol of the person I'd like to become: an independent, well dressed woman who is making progress in her life. A woman who knows what she wants and is on her way to achieving it.

I printed out a full page image of the coat and tacked it to the bulletin board above my computer. Everyday the head-less mannequin looks at me and reminds me why I wake up in the morning and spend hours on the computer re-writing cover letters and scouring the Internet. I have a long ways to go, and in order to get there I need to keep working and stay focused. So for now: Happy hunting! And even happier dreaming.

Back to Massachusetts

This weekend I visited David again in Pittsfield, MA again. This town is a bit random but still somehow charming. We visited Jacob's Pillow, a dance theater in the Berkshires we did some serious hiking and saw a bunch of waterfalls, last night we saw A Streetcar Named Desire and went to the opening night party. It was great, I love visiting this area, there's always something to do. Tonight there's going to be an ultimate frisbee game where the theaters in the area compete against each other, I'm pumped, I miss playing ultimate.

Before I left for Mass I saw the movie Julie & Julia. I loved it, it made me so nostalgic for Paris and cooking. I want to go see it again. I feel connected to Amy Adam's character. I need more purpose in my life, more specifically for this blog. I need an angle. Let the brainstorming session commence.

Ok so I need a job. I have a video camera and editing software. I love to eat and I love clothes. I'm obsessed with trying to lose weight but often get frustrated and fall off the wagon. I can't wait to move out of New Jersey. But I have very little money, like most people my age. I work at a theater when everyone is off work. Hm, I just sound like a wreck, I'm not too sure what could come out of this mess. There has to be some hidden potential somewhere.

Ok lets start again, I like to make videos but I don't like seeing myself on camera right now. I love clothes and finding trends. I enjoy finding discounts and staying healthy. I sometimes act like a personal stylist for friends who need direction with their wardrobe. Nothing makes me necessarily credible source on the topic, except that I've watched a disgusting amount of What Not to Wear TV episodes and people usually compliment me on my clothes. Hmm... Maybe I'll do little web-isodes related to style... I can try to see what the trends are locally, where I live. Also incorporate me helping my friends.. Hm I feel like I still need more focus. And a name .. I think I'm going to have to mull this over for a little while before I come to any further decisions.

In the mean time, I'm going to make another trip to the movie theater...