I'm not really happy with where I am right now. Lately I've really wanted to talk to a fortune teller of some kind. I'm tired of wandering around in the dark. I'm having a lot of trouble enjoying the moment. I'm frustrated with work and I'm frustrated that I can't find any acting work. I know it takes a while to start getting work and booking jobs. I just don't like waiting. Or having to work a money job.
I'm not sure what I expect a fortune teller to tell me. I mean of course I know what I want to hear it say: Don't worry, keep on forging on in this direction, you will work as an actor, this is what you're meant to do. Even if she said I will never be an actor I honestly can't imagine not acting anymore. And it's not like I'm gonna let Miss Janet on 45th street next to the sex shop decide what I'm going to do with my life. But it would be easier than making a decision myself.
Tonight I took my mind off of all that by getting myself into the holiday spirit, decorating the apartment and wrapping presents. It took a while to figure out the best way to hang the garland. I think it should all stay now. At least for the next 24 hours. I really need to go to bed now. Bizarre sleeping habits will not help my get out of this funk. This is all for now.
