I've realized I'm really good at feeling sorry for myself. It needs to stop so I'm going to distract myself by going on a run tomorrow and then making cupcakes which I will surely consume not long after.

It's just that it's difficult to be on facebook and see how successful your friends are and then think about how you were finally cast in a show and had to turn it down in the end because you can't afford to do it because it doesn't really pay... damn you status updates, you've got me doing it again. I am banning myself from facebook. This will be more difficult than trying to not drink coffee, which only lasted 3 days. I'll delete the app from my phone, maybe that will help.

At least for now I should put the computer away and go to sleep. Then in the morning I will just watch tv and feel depressed about how much skinnier the actresses on tv are compared to me. And the camera adds 10 lbs!

Maybe I should just admit this battle against self-pity is one I'm never going to win.