Wait, this isn't what I ordered

I must admit I have been busy lately. Be careful what you wish for. I have a job (although it's temporary) and possibly another part-time one on the way. Yet I still feel almost as hopeless as I did when I was without a job and stranded at my house. I sit at a desk by myself, people only walk by on their way to the printer in the back. I usually have nothing to do and decide my time would be better spent online shopping. This is a bad decision. Spending the money whilst I earn it. Is that irony? More like inconvenience.

Also to waste time while I'm at work I read books.

I'm currently in the middle of 5 books.

I don't know what caused my book reading hysteria. They're not even in the same medium. Two paper books, one I read on my iTouch, and two are audiobooks. It's totally irrational and I can't get myself to do anything about it. Fortunately I'm nearly finished with two. There are litterally 5 books sitting on my night stand. Maybe I'm subconsciously feeling book deprived since I no longer work in a library. I wish that was my job. I hate what I'm doing, which is nothing, that is until my supervisor remembers I'm back here and orders me to do some random task like organize the mess that is their office. And the 50 something year old "intern" who I periodically share this office with can't stop speaking all of her thoughts out loud. She is freaked out today because she thinks life is too short and she's going to die soon because one of her co-workers passed away. Clearly I need a new job.

God this post sounds so sad. I don't think of myself as sad or depressed. I just decided to get two big chocolate chip cookies and a mocha latte at Panera because it seemed like a good idea and I heard someone say they were having a special on it. It's not like I'm an emotional eater who can't even keep her keyboard clean because she always manages to get crumbs all over it. Honestly. I clean it every day because I take care of my belongings.

Maybe I should just get one more cookie for the road. I do have a long drive home. And I won't be able to eat anything like this for a while since I'm getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow. See? I clearly do not have a problem.

I think a new ice cream shop just opened up my house.. maybe I can try it when I get home.